I cried last night

So I cried last night......
Was I tired? Exhausted!
Did I have a headache? Yep!
Was I a tad bit hormonal?? You betcha!!
And so I cried


I cried for San Diego
For the weather that is trapping me inside with my baby all day unless we're in the pool which feels like a warm bathtub at this point
I cried for my old apartment with it's stained orange countertops and damaged linoleum floors
I cried for my grocery store that was just down the street
I cried for the beach, and Torrey Pines, Balboa Park, and the Zoo, Del Mar and Solano Beach
I cried for my friends. ALL OF THEM! I do miss my friends so very much. I even cried for the ones who moved away before I did. When you live away from family that is what your friends become. Family, kindred spirits who are always there for you
I cried because Tim just got his ER shifts and he works everyday for the rest of the month including Olivers first Birthday


And then.......I reached the all time low........I cried because I was crying. 


I mean really Sydney?!?!? Those are all silly things to cry about, especially considering all of the terrible things that are going on in the world around me. People are loosing their jobs and living in cars and I'm sad because my husband has to go in to work on Olivers Birthday, a day that he will not even remember?  But still, it felt so good to cry. And then I realized sometimes that's all you need, a good sob to get it all out and then move on. So that's what I did.


Moving on :)